Who is going to love you

"Who is going to love ME?"

It's lucky enough to be loved by one person. One person in the world finds you attractive. They (more or less) chose you to spend their time with—essentially their life.

One person that doesn't think you're a freak for something or other. One person that puts up with your occasional rants about things that...nearly everyone else would tell you to shut up, because "no one cares." Maybe it's because they "have to" since they're "with you" or maybe it's because they genuinely care (you'd hope the latter, surely). Whatever it is, there they are through it all (or what you choose to share). And really...given human nature, and all of your traits, it should be impossible to love another person (all of their flaws and discrepancies). Really, you'd be a fool to give that up.

Right?

What if something is off? What if you can't pinpoint it? And what if when you try...you suddenly realize that everything they do just rubs you the wrong way? What if you just can't take it anymore? The idea of being with them anymore just bothers you. Then what? You still “love” them, but it's not a romantic love. In fact, you never hit the "in love" bump. Are you supposed to technically end things? Whatever thing is left? Do you think they even notice? What if you gave too many chances? Maybe someone doesn't need chances? What if you're not supposed to change people? What if everyone is perfectly flawed for someone else?  

The question then is: who ELSE is going to love you?

Because really, you're playing with fire. A bird in hand... you know? But at the same time you feel guilty, you don't feel the same way. What's the point? Is it just the idea of being with someone/anyone? Or is it that person? Does it matter who you’re with as long you have someone? Or do you want someone that you feel in love with? Does that even exist?

Back to the point: what if we're just too complex? What if there isn't a SECOND person that could love you? Think about that. You kicked one person to the curb and then lived alone forever. Logically, that is irrational and untrue, but what if it isn’t?

Maybe people should stay friends forever; never turn anything romantic. Or if you do, at the first sign of anything seriously wrong...just stop it in its tracks.

Don't waste time with anyone if they're not someone you see yourself with in the long haul. Or is that okay? Perhaps it just depends on the person. Should you stick with something even if it’s not ideal, because maybe there is no ideal?